Taylor Swift - speak now

I am not the kind of girl 
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion 
But you are not the kind of boy 
Who should be marrying the wrong girl 

I sneak in and see your friends 
And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel 
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid 
Somewhere back inside a room 
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry 

This is surely not what you thought it would be 
I lose myself in a daydream 
Where I stand and say 

Don't say yes, run away now 
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door 
Don't wait, or say a single vow 
You need to hear me out 
And they said speak now 

Fond gestures are exchanged 
And the organ starts to play 
A song that sounds like a death march 
And I am hiding in the curtains 
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride to be 


She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen 
But I know you wish it was me, 
You wish it was me 
Don't you? 

Don't say yes, run away now 
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door 
Don't wait, or say a single vow 
You need to hear me out 
And they said speak now 

Don't say yes, run away now 
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door 
Don't wait, or say a single vow 
Your time is running out 
And they said speak now 

Ooh, la la 

Ooh, ooh 

I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace 
There's the silence, there's my last chance 
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me 
Horrified looks from everyone in the room 
But I'm only looking at you 

I am not the kind of girl 
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion 
But you are not the kind of boy 
Who should be marrying the wrong girl 

So don't say yes, run away now 
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door 
Don't wait, or say a single vow 
You need to hear me out 
And they said speak now 

And you'll say let's run away now 
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door 
Baby, I didn't say my vows 
So glad you were around 

Taylor Swift - Ours

Elevator buttons and morning air
Stranger's silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here, we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now, my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine

And you'll say don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate if it's wrong and
Your hands are tough but they are where mine belong in
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you

'Cause I love the gap between your teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
'Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard

And don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours, they can't take what's ours
The stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

pengen lupa ini itu

pengen lupa banget sama ini itu. udah bosen dan capek hati banget kalo harus terus-terusan nyesek di pendem sendiri. please. bantu aku kek ngelupain apapun itu yang aku benci dan ga penting untuk diinget._.
fikiran jahat banget sih, kenapa harus tetep nyimpen memori ga perlu itu. setiap inget cerita dari zulfa jadi nyesek-nyesek sendiri. pengen nangis banget tapi takut mereka ga bisa ngerti. pengen cerita banget tapi takut bocor. pengen teriak banget tapi takut batuk. aaaaah repot. capek punya perasaan gini terus :' sakit tau gak? mending sekalian aja aku ga punya perasaan biar mati rasa :p huhihihihihii :p

lagi ngiler ngeliatin iPad

Ini unyuk. lagi sumpek. malah di marahin mamah. hari udah full kegiatan pula. bikin stres. udah capek punya masalah.
semua-semuanya aja, ga bisa ngerti. CAPEK. emang orang-orang ga capek apa? marah-marahin aku segitunya. duuh. rasanya pengen jambak rambut orang-_-
udah masalah numpuk. masih harus di sakiitin lagi.
maunya apaan sih? duh. GAADA YANG BISA NGERTII!

                                 CEWE CUEK itu karena mereka sedang merasakan kepiluan yang ada di dalam hatinya. ia merasakan ada yang berubah. bukan karena mereka marah besar mereka hanya perlu perhatian lebih dari sang kekasih. 
                                 CEWE OVERPROTECT bukan karena ia ingin memilikimu sepenuhnya. ia hanya sedikit takut kehilangan kekasihnya. 

Unyu

Nadhif juahat. katanya mau berubah :'( tapi tetep aja cuek ke aku.. bilangnya BM. masak bm tiap hari. ojadi gitu? kalok kecewe lain ga cuek. ke aku doang yang cuek. kalo udah bosen bilang kek. sakitt.

                          Hari ini hari rabu. ini hari jadian aku sama nadhif ;;) tapi hari ini aku nangis gara gara dia :' gabisa banyak cerita di blog. aku gamau ada banyak orang yang tau. biarin. aku mira sama zulfa aja yang tau. aku mau mendem aja deh. nadhif jahat. gabisa berubah :').
aku gatau deh aku ada salah apa sama dia. tapi tiap ketemu mukanya mesti gitu maraaah. aku takut. males ngomong. ga nyaman! ngertio.
                           Aku bukannya ga brani marah. tapi aku males tengkar. dia cuek. aku pura pura ga tau dan berusaha gak tanya kenapa? ada apa? siapa? hm gimana? aku takut akhirnya tengkar. aku males nangis. selama ini aku selalu nahan dia supaya enggak tengkar. tapi dia tetep kayak gitu. jahat. ga pernah capek nyakitin aku. peduli aku kenapa aja enggak!

biasanya cuma dia yang perhatian sama aku. tapi sekarang malah enggak ada. kenapa sih harus secepet itu berubahnya? emang ga bisa ya? kembali jadi nadhif ku yang dulu? yang ga gampang marah? katanya mau jujur-jujuran. mau terus terang, tapi apa? ngomong sama aku kenapa aja ga pernah. aku marah? pasti kamu gamau tau kan kenapa? kamu yang buat hubungan kita semakin menjauh. coba itung brapa kali kamu cuek sama aku tapi aku tetep diem?

dicuekin itu ga enak woy. ngertio. apa lagi kamu kecewa in :' makasih nadhif. kalo gitu enak aku ga masuk sekolah aja terus yah. biar kamu bisa bebas lagi kayak hari senin kemarin :') enak kan gaada aku? bisa ngapain aja :'
iya. emang aku overprotect. kenapa? gasuka? cari aja yang lain. ndak papa.
tadi malem ternyata aku salah besar bilang makasih sama kamu "MAKASIH YA SAYANG, KAMU BISA JAGA PERASAANKU" kamu jaga perasaanku cuma didepanku aja. kalo gaada aku? :' kamu UNYU. makasih sayang. aku sudah capek.